Its like a vortex. A pit. And I’m standing at the very edge if it. I am in the threat of falling into it again and the part where its trying to suck me in doesn’t really help.
Its been around nine months since i clung to the edge and have been trying to come out of it once and for all, but its as if there is something down there thats stopping me from freedom. Something thats keeping me from taking that final step out and never stray near again. Something that i need to figure out and get rid of as soon as possible or it might convince me to loosen my grip on the edge and embrace the depth of this black hole.